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Monday, July 23, 2012
Friday, March 9, 2012
Chance for Change
In the calm of morning, spring sunlight flows through my
windows and somehow snow is also falling. This contrast of sorts feels
questionable, unnerving, and characteristic of the winds of change.
Sitting in the midst of great transition in my life, I
wonder; does change feel like snow on a sunny day for everyone? I am someone
who carefully calculates life, making left brain decisions with strong
strategic consideration of current circumstances. So the curveball of life throwing
me a different set of circumstances can sometimes feel like a punch in the gut.
Yesterday was that day. Keeled over with freeflowing tears, feeling like I don’t
know which way is up and desperately trying to ‘figure out’ some solution. But
little perspective comes when you are processing the pain and shock that comes
with such a turnover of things to consider.
Knowing what I know in my personal development makes it
almost harder to digest. Up comes the battle of right and left brain once again.
Left brain knowing that this drastic change will push me to take action in my
life and come out a stronger survivor with faster results than I could have gained from any carefully collected plan. But that right brain. Oh, the right brain.
It scratches at any chance to blame or fill with anger and sadness. Thoughts of self doubt
are what operate it, and there is no form of logic that can alter the emotion
in such a time of shock. All you have to repair the right brain in crisis mode
is a little time and good friends.
So here we are the morning after, a prescription of time
and friends applied to the wounds of change. And it does feel different. My
left brain buzzing and excited with the chance to come up with a new plan that
will solve the crisis and leave me better off. My right brain vulnerable but
willing to try out a new path, and confidence starting to build.
A good book once taught me that you will never know what
your most successful path in life will look like. Sometimes being cut off by a
brick wall is actually part of the process in the journey of success. And most
of all, you will only ever be given what life knows you’re capable of dealing
with.
It just takes a little hope and belief in yourself.
Friday, March 2, 2012
Choose.
I am generally a fan of any experience that invites me to
take a hard look at myself, put my priorities in check, and learn about how I
operate as a person. I never expected that buying a home would be this much of
a self-development process- or teach me about how I tend to make decisions in life.
As I met with my real estate agent today, I had an experience all new to me. I heard myself as if I were
hovering above. Like a dream or a ghost sequence in a movie, I saw my words in
the context of my life. And it went a little something like this;
Step One: To
avoid making a decision or looking picky, give a list of every single idea of
what you want that you have ever had in your life. Everyone TOTALLY knows that
people hate people who know what they want (right?).
Step Two: Ask for
opinions from everyone you know so you don’t have to commit to the big
commitments of life, and there is always someone else to blame if things go
awry.
Step Three: NEVER
trust your own opinion.
Step Four: Try on
every option from your now very long list of possible realities. Realize you have no
idea what you’re talking about. Avoid the whole subject altogether for a month,
and pretend it doesn’t exist.
Step Five: Take
on a new hobby to distract yourself from the pending commitment you know you
will have to make.
Step Six:
Complain to friends about how you feel like a failure. Seek compliments and
search email inbox for motivating acknowledgement emails you have received in
the past to ‘perk’ you up.
Step Seven: Drink
too much coffee one day and get effin serious with yourself about what’s
important in life. Let an inspiring book/ted talk/article kick you in the ass
and make you realize clearly what you DO want.
Step Eight: Sit
down at desk or local coffee shop. Get ‘er done. (Note: Do not answer phone
calls or emails or go on facebook, or you will be back at Step Five all over
again)
Step Nine: Tell
everyone and their moms what you discovered.
Step Ten: Let the
world (or the magic of networking) bring you what you want.
So knowing this, wouldn’t it just be easier to skip to Step
Eight first thing? Seeing this set out, I realize where I have alienated those
around me in my ‘process’ (usually around Steps 2-6). But this is a huge brain
pattern to shorten, especially when the breakthrough of Step Seven feels so
damn good after months of shit.
The thing is, you all know (just as I do) what you need to do
in order to get what you want. How do you lose weight? Eat well and exercise.
How do you make more money? Work hard and ask for higher pay. But knowing what
you need to do isn’t inspiring. It certainly doesn’t propel you into action.
I realized over the last few days that I have a talent I
didn’t even know I had. The ability to visualize the future in a way that
inspires me to act. And the ability to help others create their own visions. It’s
picturing the end result that can skip you to step eight. I intend to keep researching brain patterns until I have Step Eight become Step One, and then teach others how to do it.
So I leave you with the words of a great Canadian band, as I
map out how to build Step Eights into next week’s schedule. And knowing now
that my best ideas and accomplishments have come to fruition in coffee shops
the country over, you will likely find me there every day next week.
Thank you ma’am for what you’ve done,
I know now where I’m going cause I’ve found just where I’m
from
Getting easier with every task.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
love.
What a perfect day to talk about love.
Having spent the last 5 years living single, Valentine’s had
generally become a holiday of dread to me. What I have come to realize
this year is that such a feeling is completely unnecessary- and in fact not useful.
If I could sum up the difference between last year and now, it
would be this: I learned to love myself.
We spend hours in the day as a society longing for the wrong
kind of love. Love for family. Love for wealth. Love with a lifelong partner.
Music and film have presented us since childhood with love. But as a
romantic child always looking for the philosophy in things, I was always looking outside of myself for the answers. I never considered they existed in my own mind.
My childhood was spent absorbing. Learning about the
relationships around me. Learning how I fit into them. After my first decade, I
learned how I didn’t fit into all the
relationships around me. Groups, cliques, friendships that lasted for or ended
in a day. The flight of belonging and the desperation to grasp back on.
It wasn’t until my twenties that I was ready to date myself.
I got to know who I was, tested the waters. I asked questions and tried on
different hats (or careers or boyfriends). Heartbreak with men and women and family. I questioned my way through a
neverending philosophy degree, then turned to personal development for the
second half of this decade to learn the deeper side of what makes me ME.
But as I near the end of this era, I see that love is my
next step. I have reached a point of acceptance for everything I am and all
that I am not. It’s not second nature yet, but I am confident my thirties will
help me get there.
This is what makes me see love and Valentine’s in a whole
new light. Consumerism has convinced us that the holiday is about romance and
sex. I see it now as a celebration of love. And love can come in any form, for any
one. How we choose to experience our love on the one day devoted to it is
exactly that- our choice.
I watched this video today, and I got it. These people were
asked to focus on love- any kind, for any one- while in an MRI machine that
evaluated their dopamine, serotonin and oxytocin levels. What caught my attention is how all of the
contestants experienced an overwhelming sense of abundance after spending the
time in that machine focussing only on love for a few minutes.
I can't help but question; when was the last time you spent 5
minutes focussed on love in your life? Have you ever devoted
time to thinking about loving you? If
these people after 5 minutes of focussed thoughts on love could experience that
high for other people and things, how would it affect your life to have those
feelings of belief and acceptance for yourself?
However your Valentine’s turned out, ask yourself; what love
did I neglect this year? What can I focus on differently? What do I take for
granted? What am I grateful for? Take 5 minutes in your day to invest in love.
Surely, it will repay you tenfold.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Cleaning Out and Moving In
As I sit here and look at my life, I am amazed at how happy
I am. My conception of ‘normal’ now is what most people would consider ‘overjoyed’.
But it’s interesting what happens when you take the risky choices in life that
have you doing what you want to do every day.
The level of development I have had over the last month is
one completely new to me. All my life I let my perception of myself decide what
I was capable of doing. Occasionally I would set a goal that was like throwing
a hat over a wall and not knowing how to go get it- but the basic things in
life always stayed the same to keep me feeling a sense of security.
So this year I did something different. I sat down with 3
friends I admire for their business savvy and personal strength, and hashed out
my business with them. The business I hesitantly started because other people told
me I was capable, even though I never believed it myself. Somehow having a
support network of such amazing people became my sense of security- and all of
the circumstances in my life were now free to play with and change.
As if by magic, my life started to fall into place. In a way
I never thought possible. And I realize every day that the only thing standing
in my way this whole time was myself.
For 4 years I was in love. Like head-over-heels, couldn’t
stop thinking about it kind of love. The lifestyle of this love was written all
over my typed goals, and I accommodated all of my life’s plans around it. But
what I came to realize this year is you can’t love something 30% and think it’s
enough. When it comes to love, it’s all or nothing.
And so it’s no wonder I stayed single all these years-
dabbling in the thought of a long-term relationship with some of the men I met,
but never truly committing. I was in
love with something else that left no room for life or men or personal goals. I
was in love with my job.
I hear people talk about ending relationships for no real reason except that it’s not
perfect, and I had experienced that to some extent with men, but never with a
love like this one. Admitting that I didn’t want to be in the career I had
worked toward for 4 years felt more like a breakup than anything I have ever
felt before. And like so many downtown couples, I now am still living in the
same space until I can find something more suited for me and move out.
But a funny thing happened as I started to let go of this
big love in my life. An amazing man walked in. Like I always say, if you are
still using old brain patterns, you can’t make new ones. Same goes for love, I
guess. Our life is a space too small to fill up with the wrong things.
Make a little room for the right ones, and they just show up.
Friday, January 27, 2012
=sum(experience+context)
It might be true that sometimes the right thing floats into
your life at the right moment. Just when you least expect it, as they say.
Today watching this Ted video was the perfect prescription
for my day. Lately I have struggled with my compulsive behaviours. The binge
that was December 2011 seemed to have set my frontal lobe on high-drive in
January. And just like with every new year, lots of change is occurring. Change
that I didn’t want to face. All change for the better, but occurring for me
like it is for the worst. I needed something to kick me into appreciating
transition fast so I could get back
to roping in my emotional impulses.
We are the sum of our experiences. It’s an interesting
distinction to look at ourselves not as someone who has experiences, but who is
their experiences. So often we complain about our circumstances affecting us,
but what if who we were was just a
collaboration of our experiences? If I truly believed this every day, I would
welcome each experience with acceptance and grace because that experience creates
who I am.
Our brain is a powerful thing. So often we don’t give it the
chance to reshape our lives in a moment. To catch the destructive thought
pattern we are travelling down, and switch it. I see the power of this organ on
days where I am so tired I could pass out on the subway- and then something
happens that perks me right up again. The only difference there is experience.
And the ability to create new contexts for life on the turn of a dime.
Stop-Change-Start is what I always say it’s like to alter
brain patterns. Change your perspective, change your environment, change your
context. Whatever you need to do to get started again; do it. Actions truly do
speak louder than words.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
better late than never.
What I love about brain science is how it shows that it is possible to
change ourselves (or our tendencies) at any age. What I love about New Years is
that it helps us shape who we want to change into.
A year ago today I had recently experienced heartbreak,
misdirection, and an uprooting of sorts. I knew it was time to change into who
I want to be, and take different actions. Today I sit here having just written
out my accomplishments and disasters this year, and I now hold a whole new
perspective on life in general.
What I noticed in writing my year in review for 2011 was
that the accomplishment list far outweighed my list of emotional car crashes.
But what’s more is that things that occurred as disasters 6 months ago were now
sitting on my trophy stand of learnings.
All of this made me think of an amazing little book I read a
few years ago that taught me I can never see what path I’m on until the end of
it, but I can sure choose the high road along the way.
So at the end of the road of 2011, I can see one thing very
clearly. It hits me as I sit here cross-legged in my own apartment, dog to my
left loving me unconditionally, two purring kittens happy in their new home,
experiencing such love and happiness I have never felt before, and feeling a
sense of satisfaction that only comes from accomplishing great challenges. To
create a shift in life and make a big change, the most important thing is to imagine
deeply and clearly what it is you truly want to create with life.
When I wrote the title for my last blog, I had no idea how
true it would ring as I sat here today. It really all does start with a vision.
So my advice to you all is this. 2012 is the perfect chance
to change your life into something you are proud of. Just as a friend asked me
this week, I ask you; if the world really were to end in 2012, how would you
choose to live your life now? Take pen to paper, finger to keyboard and write
the answers to the questions below. Shape what you would want today to be if
there were no limits. Visualizing the brain pattern through the mush is the
most important step- and the one most easily forgotten.
Vision Exercise:
1)
What are your biggest accomplishments this year?
2)
What were your biggest failures this year?
3)
What can you learn in 2012 that will shift your
failures to accomplishments?
4)
Write down 3-5 core values (ex: Love, honesty,
fun, family, integrity, etc)
5)
Sit and create a true vision for each value. Ask yourself: What would life look like
if this value were completely fulfilled? How would it feel? What would be
different? What would be the same? How would others be around you? Write it all
down.
6)
Write down 1-2 actions you can take this week
toward making this vision a reality. Can’t come up with an action? Share your
vision with a loved one and ask for help.
Thank you, world of 2011. For letting me find and express
who I am and what I’m truly passionate about; and turning it into inspiration
in the world around me. I feel truly blessed.
Namaste.
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