Chance for Change

In the calm of morning, spring sunlight flows through my windows and somehow snow is also falling. This contrast of sorts feels questionable, unnerving, and characteristic of the winds of change.

Sitting in the midst of great transition in my life, I wonder; does change feel like snow on a sunny day for everyone? I am someone who carefully calculates life, making left brain decisions with strong strategic consideration of current circumstances. So the curveball of life throwing me a different set of circumstances can sometimes feel like a punch in the gut. Yesterday was that day. Keeled over with freeflowing tears, feeling like I don’t know which way is up and desperately trying to ‘figure out’ some solution. But little perspective comes when you are processing the pain and shock that comes with such a turnover of things to consider.

Knowing what I know in my personal development makes it almost harder to digest. Up comes the battle of right and left brain once again. Left brain knowing that this drastic change will push me to take action in my life and come out a stronger survivor with faster results than I could have gained from any carefully collected plan. But that right brain. Oh, the right brain. It scratches at any chance to blame or fill with anger and sadness. Thoughts of self doubt are what operate it, and there is no form of logic that can alter the emotion in such a time of shock. All you have to repair the right brain in crisis mode is a little time and good friends.

So here we are the morning after, a prescription of time and friends applied to the wounds of change. And it does feel different. My left brain buzzing and excited with the chance to come up with a new plan that will solve the crisis and leave me better off. My right brain vulnerable but willing to try out a new path, and confidence starting to build.

A good book once taught me that you will never know what your most successful path in life will look like. Sometimes being cut off by a brick wall is actually part of the process in the journey of success. And most of all, you will only ever be given what life knows you’re capable of dealing with.

It just takes a little hope and belief in yourself.